Sunday
Do I Have A Mental Problem? (Long post warning)
I was just wondering...why is it that at the most inappropriate times, I experience a lockjaw? I can open my mouth but nothing comes out. The words are there but then the mind just goes blank. I realise my better friends have these tendencies as well. People like Sandstorm and Tachyio. Tachyio says its got to do with fascination with puzzles, and more importantly unable to interact and fit in socially. He says he has 'mild asparagus syndrome'. If that's true, then I must have acute asparagus syndrome. I've been suspecting that for some time, actually. I mean, I've got all the symptoms...
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In Asperger's Disorder, affected individuals are characterized by social isolation and eccentric behavior in childhood. There are impairments in two-sided social interaction and non-verbal communication. Though grammatical, their speech is peculiar due to abnormalities of inflection and a repetitive pattern. Clumsiness is prominent both in their articulation and gross motor behavior. They usually have a circumscribed area of interest which usually leaves no space for more age appropriate, common interests. Some examples are cars, trains, French Literature, door knobs, hinges, cappucino, meteorology, astronomy or history.
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Diagnostic Criteria FOR 299.80 Asperger's Disorder
A. Qualitative impairment in social interaction, as manifested by at least two of the following:
marked impairments in the use of multiple nonverbal behaviors such as eye-to-eye gaze, facial expression, body postures, and gestures to regulate social interaction
failure to develop peer relationships appropriate to developmental level
a lack of spontaneous seeking to share enjoyment, interests, or achievements with other people (e.g. by a lack of showing, bringing, or pointing out objects of interest to other people)
lack of social or emotional reciprocity
B. Restricted repetitive and stereotyped patterns of behavior, interests, and activities, as manifested by at least one of the following:
encompassing preoccupation with one or more stereotyped and restricted patterns of interest that is abnormal either in intensity or focus
apparently inflexible adherence to specific, nonfunctional routines or rituals
stereotyped and repetitive motor mannerisms (e.g., hand or finger flapping or twisting, or complex whole-body movements)
persistent preoccupation with parts of objects
C. The disturbance causes clinically significant impairments in social, occupational, or other important areas of functioning
D. There is no clinically significant general delay in language (e.g., single words used by age 2 years, communicative phrases used by age 3 years)
E. There is no clinically significant delay in cognitive development or in the development of age-appropriate self-help skills, adaptive behavior (other than social interaction), and curiosity about the environment in childhood
F. Criteria are not met for another specific Pervasive Developmental Disorder or Schizophrenia (Hey, you never know...right, Bob?)
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Summary
Below is a list of Asperger’s Syndrome characteristics. Most have been extracted from medical diagnostic criteria, descriptions offered by medical and counseling professionals, articles by educators and from employment biographies of approximately a dozen independent-living, medically or self-diagnosed AS adults over the age of 25. While every adult occasionally manifests these characteristics, what distinguishes adults with AS is their consistency of appearance, their intensity, and the sheer number of them appearing simultaneously. Some characteristics do not apply to everyone, so persons consulting this list should not feel compelled to find them all. Adults with AS who wish to compose employment biographies for their own enlightenment and/or as contributions to research should weigh the significance of the ones they share, and have their compositions accurately reflect that impact.
-Difficulty in accepting criticism or correction
-Difficulty in offering correction or criticism without appearing harsh, pedantic or insensitive
*Difficulty in perceiving and applying unwritten social rules or protocols
*"Immature" manners
*Failure to distinguish between private and public personal care habits: i.e., rushing, public attention to skin problems, nose picking, teeth picking, ear canal cleaning, clothing arrangement
-Naïve trust in others
*Shyness
-Low or no conversational participation in group meetings or conferences
-Constant anxiety about performance and acceptance, despite recognition and commendation
-Scrupulous honesty, often expressed in an apparently disarming or inappropriate manner or setting
-Bluntness in emotional expression
-"Flat affect"
-Discomfort manipulating or "playing games" with others
-Unmodulated reaction in being manipulated, patronized, or "handled" by others
-Low to medium level of paranoia
-Low to no apparent sense of humor; *bizarre sense of humor (often stemming from a "private" internal thread of humor being inserted in public conversation without preparation or warming others up to the reason for the "punchline")
*Difficulty with reciprocal displays of pleasantries and greetings
-Problems expressing empathy or comfort to/with others: sadness, condolence, congratulations, etc.
-Pouting, ruminating, fixating on bad experiences with people or events for an inordinate length of time
-Difficulty with adopting a social mask to obscure real feelings, moods, reactions
-Using social masks inappropriately
-Abrupt and strong expression of likes and dislikes
*Rigid adherence to rules and social conventions where flexibility is desirable
-Apparent absence of relaxation, recreational, or "time out" activities
-"Serious" all the time
-Known for single-mindedness
-Flash temper
-Tantrums
-Excessive talk
-Difficulty in forming friendships and intimate relationships; difficulty in distinguishing between acquaintance and friendship
-Social isolation and intense concern for privacy
*Limited clothing preference; discomfort with formal attire or uniforms
-Preference for bland or bare environments in living arrangements
*Difficulty judging others’ personal space
*Limited by intensely pursued interests
*Often perceived as "being in their own world"
-Strong sensory sensitivities: touch and tactile sensations, sounds, lighting and colors, odors, taste
-Clumsiness
-Balance difficulties
*Difficulty in judging distances, height, depth (and especially time for me...)
Difficulty in recognizing others’ faces (prosopagnosia)
-Stims (self-stimulatory behavior serving to reduce anxiety, stress, or to express pleasure)
-Self-injurious or disfiguring behaviors
-Nail-biting
*Unusual gait, stance, posture
*Gross or fine motor coordination problems
*Low apparent sexual interest
-Depression
-Anxiety
-Sleep difficulties
*Verbosity
-Difficulty expressing anger (excessive or "bottled up")
-Flat or monotone vocal expression; limited range of inflection
*Difficulty with initiating or maintaining eye contact
-Elevated voice volume during periods of stress and frustration
*Strong food preferences and aversions
*Unusual and rigidly adhered to eating behaviors
*Bad or unusual personal hygiene
-Attention Deficit Disorder (ADD)
-Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
-Central Auditory Processing Disorder (CAPD) (Huh?)
*Hyperlexia
-Depression
-Anxiety
-Non-verbal Learning Disorder (NVLD) (Huh?)
-Hypertension (I don't know...)
-Semantic Pragmatic Language Disorder (Huh?)
-Tourette’s Syndrome
-Dysthymia
-Susceptibility to distraction
-Difficulty in expressing emotions
-Resistance to or failure to respond to talk therapy
-Mental shutdown response to conflicting demands and multi-tasking
-Generalized confusion during periods of stress
*Low understanding of the reciprocal rules of conversation: interrupting, dominating, minimum participation, difficult in shifting topics, problem with initiating or terminating conversation, subject perseveration
-Insensitivity to the non-verbal cues of others (stance, posture, facial expressions)
-Perseveration best characterized by the term "bulldog tenacity"
*Literal interpretation of instructions (failure to read between the lines)
-Interpreting words and phrases literally (problem with colloquialisms, cliches, neologism, turns of phrase, common humorous expressions)
-Preference for visually oriented instruction and training
-Dependence on step-by-step learning procedures (disorientation occurs when a step is assumed, deleted, or otherwise overlooked in instruction)
-Difficulty in generalizing
-Preference for repetitive, often simple routines
-Difficulty in understanding rules for games of social entertainment
-Missing or misconstruing others’ agendas, priorities, preferences
-Impulsiveness
*Compelling need to finish one task completely before starting another
*Rigid adherence to rules and routines
-Difficulty in interpreting meaning to others’ activities; difficulty in drawing relationships between an activity or event and ideas
-Exquisite attention to detail, principally visual, or details which can be visualized ("Thinking in Pictures") or cognitive details (often those learned by rote)
-Concrete thinking
*Distractibility due to focus on external or internal sensations, thoughts, and/or sensory input (appearing to be in a world of one’s own or day-dreaming)
-Difficulty in assessing relative importance of details (an aspect of the trees/forest problem)
*Poor judgment of when a task is finished (often attributable to perfectionism or an apparent unwillingness to follow differential standards for quality)
-Difficulty in imagining others’ thoughts in a similar or identical event or circumstance that are different from one’s own ("Theory of Mind" issues)
-Difficulty with organizing and sequencing (planning and execution; successful performance of tasks in a logical, functional order)
-Difficulty in assessing cause and effect relationships (behaviors and consequences)
*An apparent lack of "common sense"
-Relaxation techniques and developing recreational "release" interest may require formal instruction
-Rage, tantrum, shutdown, self-isolating reactions appearing "out of nowhere"
-Substantial hidden self-anger, anger towards others, and resentment
*Difficulty in estimating time to complete tasks
-Difficulty in learning self-monitoring techniques
*Disinclination to produce expected results in an orthodox manner
-Psychometric testing shows great deviance between verbal and performance results (Unknown)
-Extreme reaction to changes in routine, surroundings, people
*Stilted, pedantic conversational style ("The Professor")
-Difficulty with "teamwork"
-Deliberate withholding of peak performance due to belief that one’s best efforts may remain unrecognized, unrewarded, or appropriated by others
-Intense pride in expertise or performance, often perceived by others as "flouting behavior"
-Sarcasm, negativism, criticism
*Difficulty in accepting compliments, often responding with quizzical or self-deprecatory language
-Tendency to "lose it" during sensory overload, multitask demands, or when contradictory and confusing priorities have been set
-Difficult in starting project
-Discomfort with competition, out of scale reactions to losing
-Low motivation to perform tasks of no immediate personal interest
-Oversight or forgetting of tasks without formal reminders such as lists or schedules
-Great concern about order and appearance of personal work area
-Slow performance
-Perfectionism
-Difficult with unstructured time
*Reluctance to ask for help or seek comfort
-Excessive questions
-Low sensitivity to risks in the environment to self and/or others
-Difficulty with writing and reports
-Reliance on internal speech process to "talk" oneself through a task or procedure
-Stress, frustration and anger reaction to interruptions
*Difficulty in negotiating either in conflict situations or as a self-advocate
*Very low level of assertiveness
*Reluctance to accept positions of authority or supervision
*Strong desire to coach or mentor newcomers
*Difficulty in handling relationships with authority figures
*Often viewed as vulnerable or less able to resist harassment and badgering by others
*Punctual and conscientious
*Avoids socializing, "hanging out," or small talk on and off the job
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Do I really have a mental problem? My tagboard and comment box is open for discussion.
Rise and Shine
A baby in a manger, the town of Bethlehem
The wise men had the heart to know He was the great I Am
They crossed the desert many miles to kneel down at His feet
The star that led them seemed to tell them what had come to be
The Son's gonna rise and shine
Make the lame walk, the deaf talk, and give sight back to the blind.
Bring a light into the darkness no one can deny
As sure as there's a heaven, the Son's gonna rise and shine
At the age of thirty-three, the prophecy fulfilled
On the cross at Calvary His blood for man was spilled
The sky was black as midnight, but 'neath the dark and gloom
Voices rang and angels sang dancing 'round the tomb
The Sons's gonna rise and shine
He'll take away the keys of death, the grave will loose its bind
Hell will be defeated in three days of time
On resurrection morning, the Son's gonna rise and shine
It's been two thousand years, but the story's still the same
For those who will believe in Him and call upon His name
The Son's gonna rise and shine
Heal the sick, raise the dead, the Savior of mankind
The day will soon be dawning will be the end of time
King of kings, Lord of lords, The Son's gonna rise and shine
Jesus, Son of Glory will save your soul and mine
Brother are you ready, the Son's gonna rise and shine.
I was just wondering...why is it that at the most inappropriate times, I experience a lockjaw? I can open my mouth but nothing comes out. The words are there but then the mind just goes blank. I realise my better friends have these tendencies as well. People like Sandstorm and Tachyio. Tachyio says its got to do with fascination with puzzles, and more importantly unable to interact and fit in socially. He says he has 'mild asparagus syndrome'. If that's true, then I must have acute asparagus syndrome. I've been suspecting that for some time, actually. I mean, I've got all the symptoms...
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In Asperger's Disorder, affected individuals are characterized by social isolation and eccentric behavior in childhood. There are impairments in two-sided social interaction and non-verbal communication. Though grammatical, their speech is peculiar due to abnormalities of inflection and a repetitive pattern. Clumsiness is prominent both in their articulation and gross motor behavior. They usually have a circumscribed area of interest which usually leaves no space for more age appropriate, common interests. Some examples are cars, trains, French Literature, door knobs, hinges, cappucino, meteorology, astronomy or history.
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Diagnostic Criteria FOR 299.80 Asperger's Disorder
A. Qualitative impairment in social interaction, as manifested by at least two of the following:
marked impairments in the use of multiple nonverbal behaviors such as eye-to-eye gaze, facial expression, body postures, and gestures to regulate social interaction
failure to develop peer relationships appropriate to developmental level
a lack of spontaneous seeking to share enjoyment, interests, or achievements with other people (e.g. by a lack of showing, bringing, or pointing out objects of interest to other people)
lack of social or emotional reciprocity
B. Restricted repetitive and stereotyped patterns of behavior, interests, and activities, as manifested by at least one of the following:
encompassing preoccupation with one or more stereotyped and restricted patterns of interest that is abnormal either in intensity or focus
apparently inflexible adherence to specific, nonfunctional routines or rituals
stereotyped and repetitive motor mannerisms (e.g., hand or finger flapping or twisting, or complex whole-body movements)
persistent preoccupation with parts of objects
C. The disturbance causes clinically significant impairments in social, occupational, or other important areas of functioning
D. There is no clinically significant general delay in language (e.g., single words used by age 2 years, communicative phrases used by age 3 years)
E. There is no clinically significant delay in cognitive development or in the development of age-appropriate self-help skills, adaptive behavior (other than social interaction), and curiosity about the environment in childhood
F. Criteria are not met for another specific Pervasive Developmental Disorder or Schizophrenia (Hey, you never know...right, Bob?)
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Summary
Below is a list of Asperger’s Syndrome characteristics. Most have been extracted from medical diagnostic criteria, descriptions offered by medical and counseling professionals, articles by educators and from employment biographies of approximately a dozen independent-living, medically or self-diagnosed AS adults over the age of 25. While every adult occasionally manifests these characteristics, what distinguishes adults with AS is their consistency of appearance, their intensity, and the sheer number of them appearing simultaneously. Some characteristics do not apply to everyone, so persons consulting this list should not feel compelled to find them all. Adults with AS who wish to compose employment biographies for their own enlightenment and/or as contributions to research should weigh the significance of the ones they share, and have their compositions accurately reflect that impact.
-Difficulty in accepting criticism or correction
-Difficulty in offering correction or criticism without appearing harsh, pedantic or insensitive
*Difficulty in perceiving and applying unwritten social rules or protocols
*"Immature" manners
*Failure to distinguish between private and public personal care habits: i.e., rushing, public attention to skin problems, nose picking, teeth picking, ear canal cleaning, clothing arrangement
-Naïve trust in others
*Shyness
-Low or no conversational participation in group meetings or conferences
-Constant anxiety about performance and acceptance, despite recognition and commendation
-Scrupulous honesty, often expressed in an apparently disarming or inappropriate manner or setting
-Bluntness in emotional expression
-"Flat affect"
-Discomfort manipulating or "playing games" with others
-Unmodulated reaction in being manipulated, patronized, or "handled" by others
-Low to medium level of paranoia
-Low to no apparent sense of humor; *bizarre sense of humor (often stemming from a "private" internal thread of humor being inserted in public conversation without preparation or warming others up to the reason for the "punchline")
*Difficulty with reciprocal displays of pleasantries and greetings
-Problems expressing empathy or comfort to/with others: sadness, condolence, congratulations, etc.
-Pouting, ruminating, fixating on bad experiences with people or events for an inordinate length of time
-Difficulty with adopting a social mask to obscure real feelings, moods, reactions
-Using social masks inappropriately
-Abrupt and strong expression of likes and dislikes
*Rigid adherence to rules and social conventions where flexibility is desirable
-Apparent absence of relaxation, recreational, or "time out" activities
-"Serious" all the time
-Known for single-mindedness
-Flash temper
-Tantrums
-Excessive talk
-Difficulty in forming friendships and intimate relationships; difficulty in distinguishing between acquaintance and friendship
-Social isolation and intense concern for privacy
*Limited clothing preference; discomfort with formal attire or uniforms
-Preference for bland or bare environments in living arrangements
*Difficulty judging others’ personal space
*Limited by intensely pursued interests
*Often perceived as "being in their own world"
-Strong sensory sensitivities: touch and tactile sensations, sounds, lighting and colors, odors, taste
-Clumsiness
-Balance difficulties
*Difficulty in judging distances, height, depth (and especially time for me...)
Difficulty in recognizing others’ faces (prosopagnosia)
-Stims (self-stimulatory behavior serving to reduce anxiety, stress, or to express pleasure)
-Self-injurious or disfiguring behaviors
-Nail-biting
*Unusual gait, stance, posture
*Gross or fine motor coordination problems
*Low apparent sexual interest
-Depression
-Anxiety
-Sleep difficulties
*Verbosity
-Difficulty expressing anger (excessive or "bottled up")
-Flat or monotone vocal expression; limited range of inflection
*Difficulty with initiating or maintaining eye contact
-Elevated voice volume during periods of stress and frustration
*Strong food preferences and aversions
*Unusual and rigidly adhered to eating behaviors
*Bad or unusual personal hygiene
-Attention Deficit Disorder (ADD)
-Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
-Central Auditory Processing Disorder (CAPD) (Huh?)
*Hyperlexia
-Depression
-Anxiety
-Non-verbal Learning Disorder (NVLD) (Huh?)
-Hypertension (I don't know...)
-Semantic Pragmatic Language Disorder (Huh?)
-Tourette’s Syndrome
-Dysthymia
-Susceptibility to distraction
-Difficulty in expressing emotions
-Resistance to or failure to respond to talk therapy
-Mental shutdown response to conflicting demands and multi-tasking
-Generalized confusion during periods of stress
*Low understanding of the reciprocal rules of conversation: interrupting, dominating, minimum participation, difficult in shifting topics, problem with initiating or terminating conversation, subject perseveration
-Insensitivity to the non-verbal cues of others (stance, posture, facial expressions)
-Perseveration best characterized by the term "bulldog tenacity"
*Literal interpretation of instructions (failure to read between the lines)
-Interpreting words and phrases literally (problem with colloquialisms, cliches, neologism, turns of phrase, common humorous expressions)
-Preference for visually oriented instruction and training
-Dependence on step-by-step learning procedures (disorientation occurs when a step is assumed, deleted, or otherwise overlooked in instruction)
-Difficulty in generalizing
-Preference for repetitive, often simple routines
-Difficulty in understanding rules for games of social entertainment
-Missing or misconstruing others’ agendas, priorities, preferences
-Impulsiveness
*Compelling need to finish one task completely before starting another
*Rigid adherence to rules and routines
-Difficulty in interpreting meaning to others’ activities; difficulty in drawing relationships between an activity or event and ideas
-Exquisite attention to detail, principally visual, or details which can be visualized ("Thinking in Pictures") or cognitive details (often those learned by rote)
-Concrete thinking
*Distractibility due to focus on external or internal sensations, thoughts, and/or sensory input (appearing to be in a world of one’s own or day-dreaming)
-Difficulty in assessing relative importance of details (an aspect of the trees/forest problem)
*Poor judgment of when a task is finished (often attributable to perfectionism or an apparent unwillingness to follow differential standards for quality)
-Difficulty in imagining others’ thoughts in a similar or identical event or circumstance that are different from one’s own ("Theory of Mind" issues)
-Difficulty with organizing and sequencing (planning and execution; successful performance of tasks in a logical, functional order)
-Difficulty in assessing cause and effect relationships (behaviors and consequences)
*An apparent lack of "common sense"
-Relaxation techniques and developing recreational "release" interest may require formal instruction
-Rage, tantrum, shutdown, self-isolating reactions appearing "out of nowhere"
-Substantial hidden self-anger, anger towards others, and resentment
*Difficulty in estimating time to complete tasks
-Difficulty in learning self-monitoring techniques
*Disinclination to produce expected results in an orthodox manner
-Psychometric testing shows great deviance between verbal and performance results (Unknown)
-Extreme reaction to changes in routine, surroundings, people
*Stilted, pedantic conversational style ("The Professor")
-Difficulty with "teamwork"
-Deliberate withholding of peak performance due to belief that one’s best efforts may remain unrecognized, unrewarded, or appropriated by others
-Intense pride in expertise or performance, often perceived by others as "flouting behavior"
-Sarcasm, negativism, criticism
*Difficulty in accepting compliments, often responding with quizzical or self-deprecatory language
-Tendency to "lose it" during sensory overload, multitask demands, or when contradictory and confusing priorities have been set
-Difficult in starting project
-Discomfort with competition, out of scale reactions to losing
-Low motivation to perform tasks of no immediate personal interest
-Oversight or forgetting of tasks without formal reminders such as lists or schedules
-Great concern about order and appearance of personal work area
-Slow performance
-Perfectionism
-Difficult with unstructured time
*Reluctance to ask for help or seek comfort
-Excessive questions
-Low sensitivity to risks in the environment to self and/or others
-Difficulty with writing and reports
-Reliance on internal speech process to "talk" oneself through a task or procedure
-Stress, frustration and anger reaction to interruptions
*Difficulty in negotiating either in conflict situations or as a self-advocate
*Very low level of assertiveness
*Reluctance to accept positions of authority or supervision
*Strong desire to coach or mentor newcomers
*Difficulty in handling relationships with authority figures
*Often viewed as vulnerable or less able to resist harassment and badgering by others
*Punctual and conscientious
*Avoids socializing, "hanging out," or small talk on and off the job
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Do I really have a mental problem? My tagboard and comment box is open for discussion.
Rise and Shine
A baby in a manger, the town of Bethlehem
The wise men had the heart to know He was the great I Am
They crossed the desert many miles to kneel down at His feet
The star that led them seemed to tell them what had come to be
The Son's gonna rise and shine
Make the lame walk, the deaf talk, and give sight back to the blind.
Bring a light into the darkness no one can deny
As sure as there's a heaven, the Son's gonna rise and shine
At the age of thirty-three, the prophecy fulfilled
On the cross at Calvary His blood for man was spilled
The sky was black as midnight, but 'neath the dark and gloom
Voices rang and angels sang dancing 'round the tomb
The Sons's gonna rise and shine
He'll take away the keys of death, the grave will loose its bind
Hell will be defeated in three days of time
On resurrection morning, the Son's gonna rise and shine
It's been two thousand years, but the story's still the same
For those who will believe in Him and call upon His name
The Son's gonna rise and shine
Heal the sick, raise the dead, the Savior of mankind
The day will soon be dawning will be the end of time
King of kings, Lord of lords, The Son's gonna rise and shine
Jesus, Son of Glory will save your soul and mine
Brother are you ready, the Son's gonna rise and shine.
Isaiah 53
1 Who has believed our message
and to whom has the arm of the LORD been revealed?
2 He grew up before him like a tender shoot,
and like a root out of dry ground.
He had no beauty or majesty to attract us to him,
nothing in his appearance that we should desire him.
3 He was despised and rejected by men,
a man of sorrows, and familiar with suffering.
Like one from whom men hide their faces
he was despised, and we esteemed him not.
4 Surely he took up our infirmities
and carried our sorrows,
yet we considered him stricken by God,
smitten by him, and afflicted.
5 But he was pierced for our transgressions,
he was crushed for our iniquities;
the punishment that brought us peace was upon him,
and by his wounds we are healed.
6 We all, like sheep, have gone astray,
each of us has turned to his own way;
and the LORD has laid on him
the iniquity of us all.
7 He was oppressed and afflicted,
yet he did not open his mouth;
he was led like a lamb to the slaughter,
and as a sheep before her shearers is silent,
so he did not open his mouth.
8 By oppression and judgment he was taken away.
And who can speak of his descendants?
For he was cut off from the land of the living;
for the transgression of my people he was stricken.
9 He was assigned a grave with the wicked,
and with the rich in his death,
though he had done no violence,
nor was any deceit in his mouth.
10 Yet it was the LORD's will to crush him and cause him to suffer,
and though the LORD makes his life a guilt offering,
he will see his offspring and prolong his days,
and the will of the LORD will prosper in his hand.
11 After the suffering of his soul,
he will see the light of life and be satisfied;
by his knowledge my righteous servant will justify many,
and he will bear their iniquities.
12 Therefore I will give him a portion among the great,
and he will divide the spoils with the strong,
because he poured out his life unto death,
and was numbered with the transgressors.
For he bore the sin of many,
and made intercession for the transgressors.
Something to think about as Good Friday draws near. Also bear in mind that this prophecy was written more than 500 years before Jesus was born.
Could I Ever
When I woke up today
And thought of all the things You’d done
I find myself here
Feeling oh so overcome
You gave Your life away for me
Truly my heart belongs to You
So let me say
How could I ever thank You for
What You did at Calvary
When You bled and died for me
How could I ever turn away
Knowing that You paid the price
That I could never pay
When I think of the way
That You died upon that Cross
Bearing my sin
Even though my heart was lost
You gave Your life away for me
Truly my heart belongs to You
So let me say
How could I ever thank You for
What You did at Calvary
When You bled and died for me
How could I ever turn away
Knowing that You paid the price
That I could never pay
1 Who has believed our message
and to whom has the arm of the LORD been revealed?
2 He grew up before him like a tender shoot,
and like a root out of dry ground.
He had no beauty or majesty to attract us to him,
nothing in his appearance that we should desire him.
3 He was despised and rejected by men,
a man of sorrows, and familiar with suffering.
Like one from whom men hide their faces
he was despised, and we esteemed him not.
4 Surely he took up our infirmities
and carried our sorrows,
yet we considered him stricken by God,
smitten by him, and afflicted.
5 But he was pierced for our transgressions,
he was crushed for our iniquities;
the punishment that brought us peace was upon him,
and by his wounds we are healed.
6 We all, like sheep, have gone astray,
each of us has turned to his own way;
and the LORD has laid on him
the iniquity of us all.
7 He was oppressed and afflicted,
yet he did not open his mouth;
he was led like a lamb to the slaughter,
and as a sheep before her shearers is silent,
so he did not open his mouth.
8 By oppression and judgment he was taken away.
And who can speak of his descendants?
For he was cut off from the land of the living;
for the transgression of my people he was stricken.
9 He was assigned a grave with the wicked,
and with the rich in his death,
though he had done no violence,
nor was any deceit in his mouth.
10 Yet it was the LORD's will to crush him and cause him to suffer,
and though the LORD makes his life a guilt offering,
he will see his offspring and prolong his days,
and the will of the LORD will prosper in his hand.
11 After the suffering of his soul,
he will see the light of life and be satisfied;
by his knowledge my righteous servant will justify many,
and he will bear their iniquities.
12 Therefore I will give him a portion among the great,
and he will divide the spoils with the strong,
because he poured out his life unto death,
and was numbered with the transgressors.
For he bore the sin of many,
and made intercession for the transgressors.
Something to think about as Good Friday draws near. Also bear in mind that this prophecy was written more than 500 years before Jesus was born.
Could I Ever
When I woke up today
And thought of all the things You’d done
I find myself here
Feeling oh so overcome
You gave Your life away for me
Truly my heart belongs to You
So let me say
How could I ever thank You for
What You did at Calvary
When You bled and died for me
How could I ever turn away
Knowing that You paid the price
That I could never pay
When I think of the way
That You died upon that Cross
Bearing my sin
Even though my heart was lost
You gave Your life away for me
Truly my heart belongs to You
So let me say
How could I ever thank You for
What You did at Calvary
When You bled and died for me
How could I ever turn away
Knowing that You paid the price
That I could never pay
Thursday
All That I Want
My soul sings
To my Saviour, King of Kings
I need You
You are everything to me
I love You
So much more than anything
I'll live for You
Jesus, You are everything
You're all that I want
You're all that I need
You're all that I want
You're all that I live for in this world
Jesus
You are all I need
Jesus
You are everything
My soul sings
To my Saviour, King of Kings
I need You
You are everything to me
I love You
So much more than anything
I'll live for You
Jesus, You are everything
You're all that I want
You're all that I need
You're all that I want
You're all that I live for in this world
Jesus
You are all I need
Jesus
You are everything
Tuesday
A DD 0402 David Khor League Update
As the season approaches its end, it is a three-horse race for the Distinction. Jiaying Athletic is the underdog, while it does seem pretty tight for Sinchi FC and Real Giant Zucchini. Real Giant Zucchini seems to have the edge, the form sheet showing them in decent form along with Jiaying Athletic, while Sinchi seems to be slightly off the pace. However, a decent string of wins can see anyone clinch the coveted Distinction spot.
As we go further down the table, Alee Hee Hee FC and Muscleman United are in a good position to qualify for the 'A', while ZFC has been on a constant decline while still challenging for the top few positions. However, any of the midtable teams can still make good if a few results go their way.
At the other end of the table, It is a tough fight to avoid the drop, with Hamizzz FC, Elderly FC and Uncle FC all in the thick of it. However, Uncle FC seems to be on a roll, and a similar run could save them from the drop. However, they will be having the full brunt of the fixtures, and it's going to be a tough end of the season for them. Will they survive the drop?
As the season approaches its end, it is a three-horse race for the Distinction. Jiaying Athletic is the underdog, while it does seem pretty tight for Sinchi FC and Real Giant Zucchini. Real Giant Zucchini seems to have the edge, the form sheet showing them in decent form along with Jiaying Athletic, while Sinchi seems to be slightly off the pace. However, a decent string of wins can see anyone clinch the coveted Distinction spot.
As we go further down the table, Alee Hee Hee FC and Muscleman United are in a good position to qualify for the 'A', while ZFC has been on a constant decline while still challenging for the top few positions. However, any of the midtable teams can still make good if a few results go their way.
At the other end of the table, It is a tough fight to avoid the drop, with Hamizzz FC, Elderly FC and Uncle FC all in the thick of it. However, Uncle FC seems to be on a roll, and a similar run could save them from the drop. However, they will be having the full brunt of the fixtures, and it's going to be a tough end of the season for them. Will they survive the drop?
Friday
In Memory: Chris LeDoux
Bang a Drum
I went to see the preacher to teach me how to pray
He looked at me and smiled
Then that preacher turned away
He said if you want to tell him something
You ain't gotta fold your hands
Say it with your heart, your soul and believe it
And I'd say amen
Bang a drum for the sinners
Bang a drum for the sins
Bang a drum for the losers
And those who win
Bang a drum, bang it loudly
Or as soft as you need
Bang a drum for yourself son
And a drum for me
I called upon my brother just the other day
He said: Jon, I'm gonna die if I don't start to live again
I work each day and night like clockwork
Just trying to make ends meet
I could kick this bad world's ass
If I could just get on my feet
I'd bang a drum for the dying
Bang a drum for the truth
Bang a drum for the innocence lost in our youth
Bang a drum, bang it loudly
Or as soft as you need
Bang a drum for you brother
And a drum for me
I don't know where all the rivers run
I don't know how far, I don't know how come
Well I'm gonna die believin' each step that I take
Ain't worth the ground that I walk on
If we don't walk it our way
No I don't claim to be a wiseman, a poet or a saint
I'm just another man who's searching for a better way
But my heart beats loud as thunder
For the things that I believe
Sometimes I wanna run for cover
Sometimes I want to scream
Bang a drum for tomorrow
Bang a drum for the past
Bang a drum for the heroes that won't come back
Bang a drum for the promise
Bang a drum for the lies
Bang a drum for the lovers and the tears they've cried
Bang a drum, bang it loudly
Or as soft as you need
But as long as my heart keeps on bangin'
I got a reason to believe
Rest in Peace...
Bang a Drum
I went to see the preacher to teach me how to pray
He looked at me and smiled
Then that preacher turned away
He said if you want to tell him something
You ain't gotta fold your hands
Say it with your heart, your soul and believe it
And I'd say amen
Bang a drum for the sinners
Bang a drum for the sins
Bang a drum for the losers
And those who win
Bang a drum, bang it loudly
Or as soft as you need
Bang a drum for yourself son
And a drum for me
I called upon my brother just the other day
He said: Jon, I'm gonna die if I don't start to live again
I work each day and night like clockwork
Just trying to make ends meet
I could kick this bad world's ass
If I could just get on my feet
I'd bang a drum for the dying
Bang a drum for the truth
Bang a drum for the innocence lost in our youth
Bang a drum, bang it loudly
Or as soft as you need
Bang a drum for you brother
And a drum for me
I don't know where all the rivers run
I don't know how far, I don't know how come
Well I'm gonna die believin' each step that I take
Ain't worth the ground that I walk on
If we don't walk it our way
No I don't claim to be a wiseman, a poet or a saint
I'm just another man who's searching for a better way
But my heart beats loud as thunder
For the things that I believe
Sometimes I wanna run for cover
Sometimes I want to scream
Bang a drum for tomorrow
Bang a drum for the past
Bang a drum for the heroes that won't come back
Bang a drum for the promise
Bang a drum for the lies
Bang a drum for the lovers and the tears they've cried
Bang a drum, bang it loudly
Or as soft as you need
But as long as my heart keeps on bangin'
I got a reason to believe
Rest in Peace...
Wednesday
Tuesday
Today was a relatively good day. Before almost killing myself over trigonometrical identities, Mr Khor moved on to trigonometrical equations. Thank you, sir, for saving my life.
After lunch was Design History. Before almost killing myself trying to stay awake during the presentations, Ms Jie Hong gave us a 5 minute toilet break. Thank you, ma'am, for saving my life.
After Design History was Hee Kiah, AND HE APPROVED MY LIGHT!!! That really brightened up my day. Finally, months of hard work is paying off.
Then, went to work on my VI model. Almost wanted to redo the darn thing because all my effort was put into making it worse. Nevertheless, Crawldaddy offered to help me in my dire straits.
So, after a nice dinner at his place, we went to work, sanding that irritating concave curve. Well, he'll help me patch it up tomorrow, and if it's still not up to standard...I've got nothing left to say.
Anyway, after sanding, we figured we had some time for some jamming, and from jamming we went to...recording. Recorded Dark As a Dungeon and To You, to great effect. Fuzzy Green Grass is BACK!!!
After lunch was Design History. Before almost killing myself trying to stay awake during the presentations, Ms Jie Hong gave us a 5 minute toilet break. Thank you, ma'am, for saving my life.
After Design History was Hee Kiah, AND HE APPROVED MY LIGHT!!! That really brightened up my day. Finally, months of hard work is paying off.
Then, went to work on my VI model. Almost wanted to redo the darn thing because all my effort was put into making it worse. Nevertheless, Crawldaddy offered to help me in my dire straits.
So, after a nice dinner at his place, we went to work, sanding that irritating concave curve. Well, he'll help me patch it up tomorrow, and if it's still not up to standard...I've got nothing left to say.
Anyway, after sanding, we figured we had some time for some jamming, and from jamming we went to...recording. Recorded Dark As a Dungeon and To You, to great effect. Fuzzy Green Grass is BACK!!!
Sunday
Saturday
Galatians 1
10 Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ.
Voice of Truth
Oh what I would do to have
The kind of faith it takes
To climb out of this boat I'm in
Onto the crashing waves
To step out of my comfort zone
Into the realm of the unknown where Jesus is
And He's holding out His hand
But the waves are calling out my name
And they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me
Time and time again. "Boy, you'll never win!"
"You'll never win!"
But the voice of truth tells me a different story
The voice of truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
The voice of truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth
Oh what I would do to have
The kind of strength it takes to stand before a giant
With just a sling and a stone
Surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors
Shaking in their armor
Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand
But the giant's calling out my name
And he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling me
Time and time again. "Boy you'll never win!"
"You'll never win!"
But the voice of truth tells me a different story
The voice of truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
The voice of truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth
But the stone was just the right size
To put the giant on the ground
And the waves they don't seem so high
From on top of them lookin' down
I will soar with the wings of eagles
When I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus
Singing over me
The voice of truth tells me a different story
The voice of truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
The voice of truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth
10 Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ.
Voice of Truth
Oh what I would do to have
The kind of faith it takes
To climb out of this boat I'm in
Onto the crashing waves
To step out of my comfort zone
Into the realm of the unknown where Jesus is
And He's holding out His hand
But the waves are calling out my name
And they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me
Time and time again. "Boy, you'll never win!"
"You'll never win!"
But the voice of truth tells me a different story
The voice of truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
The voice of truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth
Oh what I would do to have
The kind of strength it takes to stand before a giant
With just a sling and a stone
Surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors
Shaking in their armor
Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand
But the giant's calling out my name
And he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling me
Time and time again. "Boy you'll never win!"
"You'll never win!"
But the voice of truth tells me a different story
The voice of truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
The voice of truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth
But the stone was just the right size
To put the giant on the ground
And the waves they don't seem so high
From on top of them lookin' down
I will soar with the wings of eagles
When I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus
Singing over me
The voice of truth tells me a different story
The voice of truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
The voice of truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth
Thursday
FINALLY...
...the sleepless nights are over. Do not misunderstand me, not all is calm. The projects are still piling, and the stress is still mounting, but at least I have time to sleep now. All that is left is the VI model which have to lathe, a PVC rod I have to get, Boey renderings to complete, Hee Kiah model to complete, Maths to study, Zai birdhouse to design, Materials & Manufacturing project to start on and Graphic Design concepts to complete by next week. And possibly another bombshell by Joon Kiat.
Ah, a dramatically reduced workload.
...the sleepless nights are over. Do not misunderstand me, not all is calm. The projects are still piling, and the stress is still mounting, but at least I have time to sleep now. All that is left is the VI model which have to lathe, a PVC rod I have to get, Boey renderings to complete, Hee Kiah model to complete, Maths to study, Zai birdhouse to design, Materials & Manufacturing project to start on and Graphic Design concepts to complete by next week. And possibly another bombshell by Joon Kiat.
Ah, a dramatically reduced workload.
